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los angeles, california, United States

Sunday, December 25, 2011


Spending it with my loved ones :)
I hope you all are too, I love and appreciate 
all of my loved ones so much
always there when I need them I can't ask 
for anything else but just that<3
ps-I LOVE LOVE LOVE this dress! workouts do pay off and I'm glad 
that as this year almost comes to an end I can really say my goals were accomplished
smaller pants & fatter pockets FUCK YEAH! 
smaller jeans CHECK! more hours at work CHECK!
I feel good, I'm healthy & I've got everyone I need in my life,
content as can be merry merry christmas everyone<3

Friday, December 16, 2011

Dear Santy clause

 IPAD!!! with a blue  tooth keyboard I can't help it they look SO fun & they have the cutest covers!

Owl slippers I need these up in my life
This smells like heaven in a bottle and I wants it!

Vera Wang "Sandra" sunglasses
'I'm a fucking lady' flask some spineless piece of shit lost this in vegas :( I miss it terribly!

Canon rebel t3i TOO SICKKKK ! 
Anchorman and or Clueless MY 2 ABSOLUTE FAVORITE MOVIES! I CAN & WILL out quote you try me I dare you!!!!
Crystal skull vodka, I've been dying to try this for WAY too long!

Mustache shot glasses TOO SICK!
American Apparel blue hoody soooo comfy in a small :)
Far right, white english bulldog puppy, I wanna fat boy to call my own, play with keep me company & feed beggin bites! perfect lil cuddle buddy to watch netflix with me yes I think so!

Wednesday, December 7, 2011


I saw warpaint and it was AMAZE!
 blown away at these ladies talent LOVED every minute of their show, 
from being all drunk off my honey whiskey, stealing blowpops from the womans restroom with valerie, 
and making my short ass through the crowd to get all close to see warpaint! HAHAH AMAZING SHOW! so glad I saw them!
supaaaah buzzed but I remember the show ha! LOVE THEM!

Wednesday, November 16, 2011


"We adore those who ignore us and ignore those who love us"

It's the truest thing I've ever read, 

It is true why do always hurt the ones we love?

Thursday, October 6, 2011


OK, SOOOO remember my lace up black leather JC's I posted last November , THESE Well, I did it again, I saw these and I just could not resist I went to nordstrom tried them on, they are THEE most comfiest heels I have ever worn, Yes I KNOW they do NOT look comfy at all, but they are ridiculously comfortable, I so undecided between suede or leather, suede or leather, suede or leather I love the way the suede looks but at the end of the day I realized my suede shoes at home are in boxes because I can't stand wearing scuffed up & ruined suede shoes they are so difficult to keep looking good and once you do scuff em up THAT'S IT they are scuffed forever no spray can fix ruined suede, so since the leather and suede were both the same price I figured 1paying this much for them I'm gonna definitely wear them often so I'll stick to leather & 2-leather lasts longer and gives everything a lil dark kinda feel which I love so LEATHER WAS THE WINNER! I had to order them cos they had half my size bigger at the store which is fine cos I can wear thick socks with there but bottom line all shoes stretch at least a little so if they come and they're snug I can always do thin socks and then thick once they stretch a lil bit, I can't wait for them to some in! I wanna wear them for work with straight leg slacks, dressed, skinny jeans for nights out & leggings FUCK I just wanna wear them everywhere NO LIE! they are so dam adorable & different not in a tacky way either least that's my opinion they're so classic!

Monday, September 12, 2011

Monday, September 5, 2011

Dreams, life and staying true.

  • I want to come home from a hard days work to my very own lovely air conditioned apartment
  • I want my english puppy bulldog to greet me at the door when I come in for some cuddles
  • I want a balanced life work & school friends loved ones & me time
  • I want a fat tub to relax and take bubble baths in when I want some relaxation
  • I want to able to walk around naked in my apartment when I feel like it, without having creep neighbors 
  • I want a nice kitchen to cook some bomb ass feasts in
  • I want to live next to a park, a gym, and a dope cafe for when I get to lazy to cook
  • I want to go to a fucking dodger game cos I didn't get to go all fucking season FUCK....[no not mad about that at all it's not like I like dodger games or anything.... NOT!]
  • I need to get my ass started on my leg sleeve already 22nd birthday FUCK IT ima do it 
  • I want a nice flat screen tv in my room to watch my netflix on
  • I also need to do the dam lemonade diet I bought all the ingredients for I'm exactly 20 pounds away from my ideal weight 20!!! woooooooooot I'm starting to feel really good about myself body wise I mean we all have our insecurities I've been wanting to lose some weight for some time 2011 came & I finally started doing something about it & getting results 20 down since 2010 20 more to go hell yeahhh
  • I want a new phone that isn't a piece of shit
  • I want a comfy livingroom to have people over whenever I want cos sometimes I do get lonely and wanna stop being anti social
  • I want to make more money to save more for traveling
  • I wanna go to six flags and ride superman 10 times ina row and make stupid ass faces when the camera flashes
  • I wanna get wasted & go to a karaoke bar with chill ass people who are down to make fools of themselves LIQUID COURAGE BITCHS!
  • I wanna wear my dam pretty dress I have no place to wear to with HEELS just once can I try to look like a prissy bitch?! just once? me ina dress can I give it a dam shot ?
  • I wanna go to vegas see a show actually play nit a lot but I wanna take a risk with my money just for kicks
  • I want to sip wine occasionally in my apartment maybe I should include a bevo  in things I wanna live next to...YES ADD BEVMO!!! how could I forget that duh
  • I want my hair 6 inches longer LONG HAIR IS BEAUTIFUL!
  • and lastly I want to start going to more shows I love live music any good live music why did I stop goin to shows that was my thing I lost that TIME TO TO MAKE A COMEBACK!
I want all these things for myself and you bet your ass I will have them all, However what I want most of all right now is to stop being a hormonal bitch, can someone please invent a birth control that DOESN'T fuck with a girls hormones SHIT!oh & did I mention that I wouldn't exactly mind having a scruffy, buff armed gentlemen who's a sweet heart to me come over an cuddle every so often maybe even cook me a meal or two, and let me cook him a meal or two...Yeah I wouldn't exactly mind that one bit but hey life doesn't really give you what you want does it? you gotta go out there and get what you want and that's fine because I do want all this, and when I do get all this I will appreciate it a million times more than if it would have been handed to me, and I hadn't worked my ass of for it myself. Yeah this is what I want, now to go out and make it happen well except maybe inventing that new birth control that is, WELL SHIT, A GIRL CAN DREAM RIGHT?! 

-on a side note I'd like to add this NEVER EVER lose sight of who you are, I can say this from experience cos I did for a quick minute, and I didn't notice that I had, but I'm glad I did realize it better late than never. KNOW YOU'RE WORTH, KNOW YOURSELF, COS THAT'S THE ONLY THING YOU CAN GUARANTEE YOURSELF IN LIFE. Know you, do you, and always do you, in a relationship outside of a relationship, in friendships, at work, at school, just know yourself and never lose sight of that never be blinded by love, lust, drama, bullshit, whatever shit can get in the way of you being you DON'T LET IT. If you are a strong ass bitch then be a fucking strong ass bitch don't let shit turn you into some weak ass bitch WHO THE FUCK LIKES A WEAK BITCH ? ANSWER- NO ONE! ok ok so that last part was for myself but you get the idea sheesh, be yourself and don't let ANYTHING turn you into something you're not. LIFE IS TOO SHORT, ALWAYS BE YOURSELF & SURROUND YOURSELF AROUND GOOD PEOPLE & KIND SOULS, I know for a fact that that's really really hard cos life's just full of assholes who have been fucked over by dumb bitches, who were once sweet girls, who just got fucked over by some selfish jerk, and so on & so on, it's hard but there IS good people out there, and If you're a good soul you WILL find other good souls so cherish them when you do, and most importantly never lose sight of yourself. Once you grow up and KNOW who the fuck you are & what the fuck you want, grasp that and NEVER EVER lose sight of that, yes people change but they change for the better and grow, learn from mistakes and experience that's life, ok so you lost sight of yourself for a minute, it happens, now don't ever do it again GET IT, GOT IT GOOD now go out there and live your fucking life doing you! Cos not knowing who you are and what you want is a shit feeling & waste of energy lifes too short to always be figuring yourself out TOO SHORT, APPRECIATE WHAT YOU HAVE BEFORE IT'S GONE, NEVER TURN INTO SOMETHING YOU ARE NOT & IF YOU DO, REALIZE IT, WAKE THE FUCK UP AND GO BACK TO DOING YOU IT'S NEVER TOO LATE. I really hope someone gets SOMETHING out of this, cos I mean every word & guess what SMILE! a life feeling down isn't LIVING! go out & fucking liveeeeeeeeeee! make mistakes get dirty take some chances & do it all by dong you & no one else cos YOU are amazing yes you whoever is reading this! I MEAN IT GO LIVE! and and and know this- happiness, misery and anger lie within yourself YOU let people get to you, whether it's good bad happy or sad YOU control your emotions and if sometimes we lose them THAT'S OK, get back control of your emotions and move on keep on living ENJOY xoxoxoxoxo<3

Sunday, August 21, 2011


You know what sucks when you're in bad mood or just feelin a little down due to family, work, your relationship, etc , and then not having close girlfriends to vent to THAT sucks. [FACT EVERYONE NEEDS TO VENT]This is exactly why you have to be your own best friend, because people are fucked selfish assholes. You can't expect a good friend if you're not a good friend to yourself first. Which is exactly why everyone should know how to get themselves out of a shit mood, never rely on anyone. The truth is you came into this world alone & you were fine, you will die alone too and guess what ? it'll be fine. I could go on for days about how fucked up the closest girls I've ever had and let into my life have fucked me over at the end of it all but I won't cos it's in the past where it belongs. Lesson learned, I no longer get to close to girls cos they are so 2 faced at the end of the day, they befriend you for years, close like a sister, know each other families, hang out daily, all that bff shit only to reveal there true colors at the end and make you feel like you were fooled the entire friendship NO THANKS I'd rather be alone than miserable. Always remember to strong you have to be there for yourself because everyone one else will try & try to break you apart but at the end only you can pick yourself back up not anyone else. That's the truth, Fuck people sometimes, and know your worth know what you can & can't put up with, never make exceptions and never let anyone make you feel less than you are, if you're feeling like a worthless fuck well ask yourself are you? answer no NO you're not a worthless fuck, so quit feeling bad it's a waste of fucking energy and trust me no one else wants to be around someone who's down either so remember alone does not have to mean lonely. I know who I am I know what I believe and I know I don't need anyone to feel better, although I do also believe it IS nice to have close girlfriends that aren't 2 faced fucked up selfish bitches and it is nice to be in a relationship and have a boyfriend where there is all ups no downs, BUT this is unrealistic people are not perfect, there's no such thing as a relationship with all ups and zero down and although it IS realistic to have a close girlfriend around I guess in my case they didn't last as long as I had hoped for in my life, as for my guy friends even though they are there for me there's just some things only girls can mutually understand with other girls. I guess this just means you have to really be there for yourself, because you should never count on anyone else to bring you happiness, you hold the key to your own happiness as well as your own misery.

Thursday, July 14, 2011

new hair!

my hair lady's been out of town but she's back next weekend 
can't wait to have no bangs and get my hair colored 
it's time for a change YESSSS! summer and my bangs are 
not mixing well, so buh bye bangs I've had bangs since 
high school we'll see if I like this change I'm not too 
fond of changes but I can't stand having my hair the same 
for too long I like this look on Rachel B hopefully I like it on myself too :) wooot for new hairrrr!

Monday, July 11, 2011


feeling much betta last weekend turned out amazing&lt<3
I'm in love with being in love :)
It's summer beside the horrible weather my main forcus is to not get tanned try & get more hours at work 
and save the fuckkkkk up I wanna move out already asap
I needa finish school and make more money
I wanna pay off my car asap but I can't move out
and have money for rent & my car payment so therefore 
mission get more hours at work or get another 
better paying & more hours giving job STAT!
I wanna do this already I promise myself that
by my next birthday I will have started on my leg sleeve
the only reason I haven't is cos of this lil thing called
I still live at home and my parents AIN'T having that
therefore my goal is move out, stay in & finish school 
& get tatted asap! If this can really happen for me 
I'd be sooooo happy who knows when I will be able to move out but right now getting more hours or a better job will at least help me out alot so that's my goal right now better job or more hours
then hopefully move out & get my leg sleeve started I know for sure even if I cant move out before my next birthday I want to get my tattoos started so this better happen ok anyways 
I miss my boyfriend & I miss practicing making babies with him HMMPH :/

ps- can't get enough of how cute this song is
Brindo a este amor, un amor tán raro
Brindo a este amor, un amor tán claro
Brindo a este amor, un amor derepente
Brindo a este amor, un amor tán diferente

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

these are a few of my favourite things



Yeah I mostly enjoy cuddling over 
anything else in the whole world, 
I mean only with someone special of course :)