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Wednesday, January 27, 2010

why do i get chills when i hear this song...

WEIRD! Gary Lightbody what are you doing to me? not a fan of the video
but fuckk this song is cute ha i like it A LOT!
hope you do too!

I find the map and draw a straight line
Over rivers, farms, and state lines
The distance from A to where you'd B
It's only finger lengths that I see

I touch the place
Where I'd find your face
My fingers in creases
Of distant dark places

I hang my coat up in the first bar
There is no peace that I've found so far
The laughter penetrates my silence
As drunken men find flaws in science

Their words mostly noises
Ghosts with just voices
Your words in my memory
Are like music to me

And miles from where you are
I lay down on the cold ground and I
I pray that something picks me up
And sets me down in your warm heart

After I've traveled so far
We'd set the fire to the third bar
We'd share each other like an island
Until exhausted close our eyelids

And dreaming pick up from
The last place we left off
Your soft skin is weeping
A joy you can't keep in

And miles from where you are
I lay down on the cold ground and I
I pray that something picks me up
And sets me down in your warm arms

And miles from where you are
I lay down on the cold ground and I
I pray that something picks me up
And sets me down in your warm arms

Sunday, January 24, 2010

the difference between men & boys is...


so earlier i ranted on face book about the difference between boys and men
"ya wanna know what the difference between men & boys is? STRAIGHT FORWARDNESS!!! and i cant even begin to explain how much i appreciate straight forwardness, little boys and their mind games are high school"
sooo true why is it that boys always keep you guessing, i mean i hear their game and i'm just like yeah yeah how many other girls is this fool spitting this same game to?
i never think awwwww he said this & that, he's so sweet. no! call me skeptical? i call it not being naive. a man tends to be more direct a boy asks you out by saying we should hang out? whereas a man asks you out by saying would you like to go out with me? Or go to dinner with me? etc NOTICE the difference "WE SHOULD" = unsure of himself unsure of you & unsure of his intentions. A man however, with his "WOULD YOU LIKE TO" is completely comfortable putting it all out there translation... Hey you I'm intrested and I wanna get to know you so lets go out... I'm not saying all older guys are men cos god knows you can be 25 and still be telling girls 'Hey we should hang out' which is sad! unless you really do just want to hang out but if you meet someone who sparks your intrests its better to fully ask her out on an officail date then you can decide if your still intrested or not. But age doesn't determine whether you're a man or a boy your attitude does your confidence CONFIDENCE NOT COCKYNESS! can't stress that enough

so i guess my point is MEN are straight forward, direct and confident no mind games needed if you lay out what you want on the table.Think about it unless a girls fucking stupid [sorry ladies but a big group of you are] she'll get the hint on how some boys are with them and how MEN are with them. WE NOTICE! don't ever assume a girl is only talking to YOU or only intrested in YOU! so take the initiative GROW A SACK & MAN UP! if you're feeling someone TELL THEM! what's the worst that could happen YOU'LL GET TURNED DOWN WOW?! fucking get over it IT HAPPENDS TO EVERYONE YES EVERYONE! trust me the prettiest girl the handsomest most charming man we all get turned down & we ALL GET OVER IT?! if you get turned down don't take it as a negative take it as a postive good for you now you know it wouldn't have happened. No point dreading something that can never happen no point wasting your time & energy if someone has already told you or displayed they are not intrested in you! So get over it. Tell someone if you're feeling em!!! what if you totally are and you're too much of a pansy little boy to man up and tell that person, and someone else is already telling the same person you're intrested in "hey THEY THEMSELVES" are also intrested BUT they had the BALLS to tell her?! & YOU DIDNT! WHAT THEN guys she wont wait forever trust me. from one to the next ina heartbeat IT HAPPENDS!

BELIEVE ME SOME GIRLS do want to be swept off their feet MEN DO THIS boys dont! men by taking the inititaive to get to know a girl & tell a girl how they feel about her which can lead to MEN totally wooing a girl into diggin you even more than before
and this may or may not lead to a positive but why waste time?! DON'T there's SOOOO many people out there. Let people know how you feel. HEY if your the relationship type go for it! find that person you feel comfortable enough to be with if NOT why are you wasting your time one someone who ONLY wants a relationship? if you like being single and being able to have who ever you want be direct with your intentions as well, no point in beating around the bush for what ya want right dudes? and no all of a sudden boyfriend behavior IF YOU DIDNT ASK HER TO BE YOUR GF THEN DON'T ACT LIKE SHE IS! so you took her out on one date and the next week shes out with another guy HEY GUYS GUESS WHAT THATS NOT A SLUT! talking to multiple people at once is totally FINE! HOWEVER doing shit! with multiple people TISK TISK! thats a lil slutty multiplie partners=multiple risks so if you ARE be safe & let the people know their not the only one your seeing! thats not fair! & nobody likes a tease either so STOP BEING ONE you know who YOU are!

It sucks but its true no girl is going to wait around for one guy to FINALLY become intrested. I'm talking from experience btw yes I was once a fool having the biggest lil girl crush on someone and finally one day I just got sick of how pathetic I seemed wanting someone so bad who never EVER displayed any intrest in me as someone who could be more than his friend. OK so I didnt realize it all by myself BUT having guy friends in my life to tell me my shit straight up helped. my freind told me make a move take the initiative he's not a mind reader hows he supposed to know you're intrested so i did [SORTA thats another story im not gonna get into]& I got turned down it sucked but I got over it and moved on! BEING DIRECT =RESULTS whether negative or positive it gets you results SO BE DIRECT!!! stop being a PUSSY! and guys when you meet a girl don't assume every girl wants a relationship I FUCKING HATE THAT! wtf since when is there only 2 types of girls 1-THE SLUT 2-THE ONE WHO WANTS A RELATIONSHIP ummm no!
I like being single correction I LOVE IT! not having someone asking me where im at? and who im with? and where im going? AMAZING! NOW dont get me wrong i've been in serious relationships but right now iIjust want to date and if I find someone who i really am intrested in who I can REALLY see my self being in a relationship with then you know what it'll happen! as for now I'm just enjoying life & having no expectations so far im sticking to it im happy im never hung up on guys & im enjoying my single life in a non slutty way either thank you! anyways back to my point don't be clingy and don't ASSUME! if ya wanna know JUST ASK we'll tell you! be respectful & direct I know theres a SHITLOAD of sluts out there giving non slutty girls a bad name but THATS LIFE if a guy just assumes your a slut ladies & your not LET HIM KNOW :) if you are a slut LET HIM KNOW he'd like you for a good 10 minutes ;) whatever be a slut, dont be a slut and have morals just know what YOU WANT I'm not here to judge or tell people they should be this way and not that way I'm just here telling you GUYS & GIRLS be direct mind games are bullshit.boys man up & be direct if your ready to tell a girl you're really intrested in her. lets cut the bullshit!

ps-this is NOT about anyone in particular its about whats happened to me, friends, co workers a lot of people in my life pretty much i've heard some of this shit from all of them including myself i just finally felt like sharing my thoughts
i REALLY hope this helps some of you<3

Friday, January 15, 2010

you are beautiful susie salmon,

i saw the mid night showing last night with drea it was pretty good
i soooo have to re read the book tho wasnt exactly the same but i liked it
and the boy was cute! ha

SPOILER ALERT: i was kinda bummed cos they don't show how he kills her
which if you read the book is one of THEE best parts! so yeah bummer

Thursday, January 7, 2010

some 2010 date tips

1-GUYS please grow a brain DON'T pick up a girl and be on the phone?!?!
wtf is wrong with you if you're picking up a girl be a gentleman and greet her
im not saying bring flowers im saying acknowledge that you're happy she agreed to go out with you

2-don't text on a date GUY & GIRLS don't if you're into them you won't do it so quit it pay attention to your dat enot your phone

3-GIRLS good girls spit dirrty girls swallow EVEN GUYS KNOW THIS really you just met a guy and you're gonna swallow don't be nasty

4-IF you're on a FIRST date DO NOT bring up your ex honestly how dumb are you?!
talking about your ex=NOT BEING OVER THEM there's going to be plenty of other dates, if your first date goes swell, in which you can bring up your past realtionship IF YOU WANT TO?! if not its cool don't talk about it we shouldnt but we ALL do judge a lil on peoples past and even if you may not judge it does alter your views on the other person

5-telling the person your on a date with you you USED to be a lil crazy as in a lil SLUTTY but you're TOTALLY not anymore COME ON GROW UP we didnt need to know that if your telling someone its cos deep down you're a lil proud of your bad rep so instead of telling them you've changed SHUT UP AND PROVE IT
actions speak louder that words how many times do i have to tell you this!

k goodluck hope these tips help:)

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

for the BOYS who want to be MEN:

she took the words right out of my mouth i love this- read up dudes

learn to be the ultimate man! listen, i know there’s a time and a place for everybody and everything. and it takes a while for dudes to grow the fuck up/man up/know who they are. so, when you do decide that you love a girl/want a girl in a major way/know you’ve met a girl that means something to you/she’s a special mission to be accomplished, who makes your heart beat faster and intrigues you… you need to cut the bullshit dude and step it the fuck up! because there are guys out there who are just as sexy as you, just as funny, with great style…. but they’ve got you beat! cuz they have game; imagination, money, a personality, likability, and follow through. men who are reliable, trustworthy, great in bed, handsome, successful, masters at what they do. men who are patient, warm, and kind; who make a woman feel like a woman!

dudes, you have to be aware that it’s a war zone out there! this is battle (same for girls, but I’m talking to the dudes right now!) great girls are hard to come by. a connection is hard to come by. getting the attention of the girl you have a crush on can be difficult when there are other dudes out there making you look super lame-o/bad/not as good/inferior/chump like. Marilyn Monroe said it simply in gentleman prefer blonds: ‘it’s just as easy to fall in love with a rich man, as a poor man.’ and I’m not just talking about rich in the financial sense. i mean, that’s rad too, duh! but what i mean is- rich in character, depth, who has the ability to sweep a woman off her feet!

dude’s, if you wanna win the girl; the best girls, the hottest girls who aren’t just hot- but who are successful in their own right, stylish, in fantastic physical shape, beautiful, interesting, quick witted, smart, charming, funny, confidant, great kissers, sexy, nasty in bed, your best friend, bad ass, creative, AND amazing arm candy that makes you proud, with an epic life of their own, and brings a lot to bring to the table: you have to up your mother fucking game and be the best! because, let me tell you, these girls have their pick! and if you wanna be in the race… you have to grow the fuck up! lose the loser/ego maniacal- attitude and bravado! i mean, you live in a dirty shit-hole and are a narcissist asshole! you don’t have a career or clean pants! you don’t hold the door and you’re mean! do you think Giselle would date you? or Cindy Crawford- then OR now? FUCK NO! not at all! probably not. and by probably, i mean ‘definitely no‘.

watch a James bond movie and don’t just start drinking martini’s. in fact STOP drinking altogether bone-head! and stop smoking pot too, while your at it! you can be tough (brave), strong (muscly), and watch porn (not too much though, please) and be a great man… but being a stealth, sexy, suave dude- with crazy amazing seduction skills, who loves to seduce women, make them cum, feel happy, and safe because he genuinely likes her and wants to do that…. is way cooler! and no dick pic’ing please. get some game!

I’m not saying ‘game’ in the sense that you should mind fuck a girl into making her feel sooooo confused and low that she’s a weak little bitch wrapped around your finger. no, asshole! you don’t have to ‘neg’ her to death with stupid games and back handed compliments. it’s OK to tell her she’s beautiful if you think she’s beautiful. women LIKE that. at least the healthy ones do, who can accept compliments and are in a good place mentally and emotionally. don’t pander to her, but don’t be a dick for the sole purpose of being a dick either! hold the door, open the car door, hold her hand, kiss her in public. you should be with her cuz you’re proud and happy to be with her. and if this is the case- show it, make her know it. women want to be made feel safe, loved, and protected- whether they know it or not. they are also smart and won’t put up with your bullshit either. sometimes a girl is fucking you, and thinking about how she would never marry you because you bring nothing to the table. to her, you are a guilty pleasure behind closed doors. you may think you played her, and are getting under her skin… but the truth is.. you’re not good enough for her. and she’ll find out soon. when she meets a man that reveals what a boy you were. with all your bullshit, you blew it. and you thought you were being so cool. grow the fuck up dude. and get a job while you’re at it; you skinny, boring, couch surfer. we see you! BTW, personalities are cool too. get one this year! 2010 is all about possibilities! you can do it! make the transition; from a chump to a champ!

so, if you like a girl- be direct and don’t play games (shit, that’s almost the ultimate game, because it’s so rare). make her proud to be on your arm, make her think…. correction: SHOW HER that other dudes are nothing compared to you (show this with your behavior, not just your words). be an example that makes other couples crumble and fall to the wayside. don’t be desperate, but be direct. you don’t need to ignore and push and pull and dick her around because you think that’s what she likes. if that’s the shit she likes, she’s probably a nut case and you should both be in therapy. you should both be in therapy in general. therapy is great! ps: along with all this shit i’m telling you- a real connection and meeting one other at exactly the right time in each others lives is crucial for a relationship to work! just thought i should throw that in.

if you’re cute and cool, she likes you. duh! and when you know she likes you, (trust your gut) lay it down! be a man! make power moves. pay for fucking dinner. get a hotel room, carry her over the threshold. be fucking direct. tell her you like her, call her, don’t just text like a coward. if you two ARE texting, respond to her text. you don’t have to wait an hour and play games. you can keep your cool, hold your cards close, keep some mystery, be strong, calm, cool, collected….and honestly open at the same time. walk around like you have the biggest dick in the world; as if you could club any dude who approached her to death with this huge d i c k of yours. even if you don’t (this is annoying though- cuz an attitude like that is confusing to girls when they eventually do get your pants off and it’s a tiny nubbin. but that’s not your fault, you were born like that. and you totally deserve to breathe and fuck girls and get off and exist on this earth too. you just better be great at oral sex/finger-blasting/sensual seduction foreplay-mid play-and after play!) it also helps if you dress well, are attractive, aren’t stupid, are funny, and have a great job that makes your insides smile and puts a wad of money in your bullet proof safe which is hidden deep inside your mansion on a hill.) don’t be too eager. be stable and cool. have your life and make room in it for her. if you sense you need to back off cuz she’s stressed, do it. it’s all a dance. there’s time. be cool- not passive aggressive, mean/cool-no! be a silent stallion ‘i have a life cool.’ like the sexy man rock you are. and at the same time, you must always know your worth. don’t put up with a girl who treats you like shit either, cuz that just makes you look lame too! but, I’m telling you. if you’re as cool as the stand up guy I’m describing, when you meet a girl who’s sane- she’ll treasure you and know how lucky she is. she might even offer to pay for YOUR coffee or macro burger at m cafe. good luck boys! i hope i see you on the other side. don’t blow it. being a man is an art-form! i love you! xo

Monday, January 4, 2010

2010 you're officially here

im so glad to finally meet you!
2009 was full of simmering down and discovering what i want
gotta fabulous job and i've kept everyone in my life that needs to be there
havent dealt with too much bullshit i hope 2010 is the same way except lets face it not as boring! its all good tho 2010 equals 21st birthday cant be boring after that
ikm sykked for coachella and i think 2010 is gonna be the best year yet
still not down to settle down but if i happen to meet someone worth spending time with i will im open minded this year its all about out with the old in with the new
so far this years been amazing the whole 4 days of it :)
hahaha new years was rad my weekend was even better and my night last night was cute!