true love?

K so i started to write this post back in late January and I finally had some time to finish & edit it enjoy<3

The Osbournes. They are my favorite rock & roll couple. I saw a picture of them and I started to think about their marriage and how it's actually lasted despite the crazy rock & roll life. I used to be addicted to their show when it was on mtv and I remember why, the crazy ups and downs were exciting to watch, and even after it all they're are still together and going strong. He has supported her through her cancer, helped her overcome it. She has supported him through his addictions and helped him overcome them. This is what it truly means to be in a truly loving relationship you take the bad and the good and love unconditionally. They make me feel like maybe there is STILL "real love" out there, Like if there is sucha a thing they truly have it and it’s beautiful. There is still people who will do whatever it takes to keep a relationship working. Maybe true love has changed a lot, but also maybe it isn't completely extinct.

 I've never been that 'I'm getting married type' of girl & as I've gotten older I believe even less in marriage & true love. I think people move to fast and mix lust with love, I myself am guilty of that. I can say I've only in my life ever had ONE meaningful relationship, it didn't end badly either, but it did end. I was young so of course it came to an end even if it was good while it lasted. I can say this though I still don't think it was "love" we grew up together and dated for years I think our feeling grew from a friendship and trust within each other into this so called love. But in the end I never felt heartbroken. I just felt like I was gonna miss having someone there for me who I truly cared about and cared about me, I didn't feel like I lost my love though, maybe I never truly considered myself to be in "love" with him, maybe I just felt like I was doing what I was supposed to do. Even up until the end being engaged and; planning out moving in together/starting a family something I realized a lil later rather than sooner I 100% don't want for myself, but I agreed with it all cos I felt it was the right thing to do. That’s not real love though, maybe I don’t know what it is, maybe I don’t believe in it at all, but I'll say this, I don't think love is the same as before, I mean like when most of our parents or grandparents grew up. Maybe I'm stuck in the 1950's, but what happened to people being courting instead of boning each other! WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED? Every thing's so different even asking a girl out isn't classy "hey wanna hang out" via TEXT OR EVEN FACEBOOK! what happened to " I would like to take you out on a date/Would you like to go out with me?" etc in person or at least a phone call right?

Anyways back to my point, My point is people throw around the word love' like it’s a 'what’s up' IT'S NOT its three words, eight letters that are and should be the most meaningful words someone who truly cares about you, and you truly care about back could EVER say to you. The fact that this word has been thrown around like it's a fucking hello is in my opinion why marriage has gone to shit nowadays. If someone says these words they better mean it with every ounce of there being and live up to it too, it's not something casual, to be tossed around to everyone, it's just not. It makes me sad when people use it so casually, taking away more and more how important these 3 words can truly be to someone, especially when shared between 2 people who truly honestly mean it. People talk and talk and we eat it all up, it's not about promises though, back in the day if you loved your woman you would show up to her work, house, school whatever serenading her bring her flowers acting a fool and not giving a fuck what anyone thought because all that mattered was that YOU found someone you really care about and want to be with and you’re willing to show it. I know this cos I’ve heard stories from my family about how it was back in the day when they were young & how different it was. Today holding hands, hugging and kissing is considered PDA, which there’s nothing wrong with I mean you think back in the day when a man showed up to serenade his lady people rolled their eyes and thought gross NO so who cares if people wanna hold hands and smooch, Don’t be a bitter hater don’t wanna see it DON’T LOOK. As long as people aren’t fucking in front of you RELAX don’t be jealous. It’s expressing you’re feelings about each other openly since well serenading and all that is a thing of the past now. Nowadays where's the chivalry is it truly dead? I mean I know there's romantics out there believe me there is gentlemen, and good real honest men out there, but I think sometimes girls who have been fucked over by some non gentlemen ruin the good men out there & that results in even less true gentlemen out there.

Anyways back to marriage, I'm not a strong believer that marriage works, so I never plan on getting married EVER. I could write a 20 page paper on why I feel this way but to summarize, I just don't think it's for me. When people tell me what if you meet someone & fall madly inlove with them my response is, 1-I can't really say whether I will or won't fall "in love" with someone I don't think I 100% believer in love in this day & age, Maybe when my parents where young maybe when my grandparents were young. I just think if I do meet someone who totally blows my mind, who can thrill me just by kissing my cheek, forehead, neck etc, who I felt such intense surreal true and heartfelt feelings for, then that person wouldn't need a legal document stating we are "married" to want to be with me for as long as we live. If I ever met such a man, he would love me equally and know that getting married isn't something for us, that being said kids won't be in my future either. I would love nothing more than to live my life to the fullest, travel EVERYWHERE, always meet new people & see new things, have a great life living for ourselves, experience different things. Never worry about enrolling a kid in preschool, nannies, bedtimes none of that. If I do so happen to meet someone amazing who I can seriously care about and want to spend my time with, then I'd hope he felt the same about life as I do, no kids no marriage to make a monogamous relationship real, let's just be together, travel, live our lives, and live to the fullest. I'm just a hopeless romantic. I enjoy my life to the fullest whether I'm single or not single, I don't have these 'someday when I meet the love of my life' types of feelings & every time someone hears me talk about this the first thing out of their mouth is either yeah right you're so gonna get married & 2 you're so gonna have kids, it never gets old I can respect their opinion, and in return I hope they respect mine. These are my views on my life right now I've felt the same ever since I can remember and this is me now 21 going on 22 saying I Leslie don't want marriage or kids, I want to live & never ever be a mom. A lover maybe so why now? However, a wife no thank you. Call me crazy but I have my own personal reasons as to why I refuse to bring a child into this world aside from wanting to live an amazing life traveling seeing the world before I die, and why I refuse to be a wife as well. 

Oh Elvis Elvis Elvis,

YOU WERE ONE INCREDIBLY ATTRACTIVE MUSICAL GENIUS<3

Dear favorite,

 1-How I feel when I miss you :(

 2-How I feel thinkin about you ;)

 3-How I feel about other guys, since you :/

 4-How I feel when I'm with you besitos & more besitos please :*

5-How you always make me feel :D

We're total dorks & I like it!

You like me, I like you, BESITOS

sincerely, your favorite dork xoxo<3

Hey you,

 You know that feeling of when you first meet someone and get excited whenever you see them? That being thrilled feeling as well as scared. It's like a huge rush, rush about what is it exactly that you're feeling, real feelings? is it lust? and is it lust alone? is it lust and real feelings too? what the fuck is going on here? RIGHT you get me? Well, yeah that feeling is intense. Instant chemistry is scary as hell, but amazing at the same time. Its so fucking weird! You can talk to whoever is giving you these feelings and realize you're both on the same page, And yet that scary thrill is still there. It's a little overwhelming at times but it's awesome! Like a REALLY hard ass spank during sex, you know that shit hurts like a mother fucker, But it feels fucking amazing at the same time. Guess all you can do is enjoy the ride, take things as they come, and do what you want to do, don't leave any room for what if's later on, and live it up! Of course living it up doesn't mean being a fool either tho, KNOW how both of you feel, don't guess. Adults talk shit out! little girls and boys wonder about them. We're adults here we can talk about feelings people, this isn't high school. Don't buy into games be smart with who you get vulnerable around or don't get vulnerable around. Be careful who you get intimate with or don't get intimate with [emotionally as well as physically] Don't have expectations they CAN lead to disappointments later. It's best to go with the flow, I know easier said that done but try and keep that mentality. Focus on now as opposed to tomorrow, if you're happy, be happy. If you have feelings enjoy them. If you like things the way there going, don't fuck up. ENJOY this crazy, scary, thrilling rush it's not something you come across that often, or at least it shouldn't be so enjoy it, live it up, have no regrets and be excited its one of the best feelings to have! seriously it's up there with orgasms ;)


PS-little letter for anyone who is going through this, has gone through it, wants to go through this, oh a lil for myself, hey we all need advice sometimes, even if its from ourselves reminding us to just follow our own advice, keep practicing what we preach to ourselves. Hope you enjoy<3

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tunes

I'm only a woman of flesh and bone and I wept much,We all do I thought I might die alone

But I had never met you so baby be good to me I've got nothing to give you, 

you see except everything, everything, everything, everything all the good and the bad cause I've been bad

I've lied, cheated, stolen, and been ungrateful for what I had and I'm afraid habits rule my waking life

I'm scared and I'm running in my sleep for you but all of the oceans and rivers and showers will wash it all away

And make me clean for you cause I had never met you,

if you want to find yourself by travelling out west   or if you want to find somebody else that's better go ahead go ahead if you want to buy a brand new fancy automobile or if you want to build a place up in coldwater canyon go ahead go ahead go ahead i wish you would go ahead if you want to hold your own hand going up that cliff or if you want to just hold back cause you ain't up to it go ahead  go ahead go ahead be my guest go ahead if you want to hold on to the first girl that you meet or if you want to settle down and plant roses at my feet go ahead go ahead go ahead i wish you would go ahead if you want to have your cake and eat it too and if you want to have other people watch you while you eat it go ahead  go ahead go ahead be my guest go ahead if you want better things  i want you to have them if you want better things then i want you to have them  go ahead  go ahead go ahead i wish you would go ahead go ahead i wish you would go ahead

Rilo Kiley's Jenny Lewis really has quiet the voice for such heartfelt love songs, I love oldies a lot, 

'Go ahead' always gets me<3 'I've never' is another favorite these songs are cute & 

I'm not a lovey dovey kinda gal but these tunes are cute totally feeling the love haha

Yes, Holy shit yes.

"Give in to lust, give up to lust, oh heaven knows we'll  soon be dust ..."

Rules to live by. For you fellas!

1. We have the kitty... we call the shots... 
2. If I bite that's my way of saying I like what you're doing there buddy/I'm loving this so take it as 'GOOD JOB ;)'
3. If he doesn’t go down on you, he doesn’t get inside of you.
4. It's not over when you're over so get down there and handle some business, be a master at getting her off by sucking on her mother fucking pussy, don't just suck, lick, flick, tickle, kiss, nibble, use the tip of your tongue and slowly stick your finger inside her. Make a woman cumming in your mouth your ambition!!!
5. Knowing how to give amazing head and practicing this talent on a woman gives you power. The more you make her cum the more power you have, use it wisely.
6. Size does matter to a certain point but girth matters more & the way you use it, so if you're having issues please refer to #4
7. Pay attention listen to what she enjoys if she's moaning keep up the good work obviously a girl's enjoying that DUH, If she doesn't or you just don't know ask COMMUNICATION is key when it comes to being intimate with someone.
8. If she wraps her legs around you she want you deeper TAKE THE HINT thrust harder,change positions, grab a pillow to put underneath her whatever, LOOK out for hints if she's not as verbal about telling you what she likes/wants. 
9. Choose your gear WISELY! there's nothing sadder than a hot guy in bad shoes, or bad clothes you don't wanna blow it before you even open your mouth right? & if you do open your mouth it should be to eat pussy, oh wait too far?
10. Back handed compliments are so 2010 but sexy sarcasm that's hot! 
11. Don't be a fool cover you're tool! Man up & make sure your ass always has condoms ALWAYS ALWAYS talking about who's gonna go get plan b the next day is the most horrific conversation you could have serious! We've all done it & if you haven't & don't listen to this advice YOU WILL! it ain't cute so don't do it, don't be silly wrap your willy!
12. When flirting through texts or e-mail don't forget to set up the girl for a reply text! Otherwise you've texted yourself into an un-sexy, feeling kinda dumb,little corner
13. On that note don't text or fb or tweet on a date it will ruin everything I swear it will! Put your phone away!
14. Hold the door for girls IT'S FREE you sleaze bag!!! 
15. Suck and lick her nipples man. Pull a nike and just do it, a nip caress while your kissing ain't so bad either.
16. ALWAYS make sure your date got home safely "text me so I know you got home ok" it's not that hard motherfucker so have manners & make sure she got home safe.
17. Can't stress this one enough! Just because you've "heard" about a girl liking a certain "type" of guy that you don't happen to be ex-"oh she only likes light guys with beards & colored eyes" & you just so happen to not be or have ANY of those features WELL excuse me, but there's a lil something most of us have, It's called personality fucker! have a great one & non of that shit matters! & if it DOES matter that much to a girl FUCK THAT SHALLOW ASS BROAD! you don't need that or want it, So ask a girl out if your interested! CONFIDENCE A HUGE TURN ON. I'll let you in one a little secret EVERYONE GETS SHUT DOWN/REJECTED IN LIFE you move on, that's the worst that can happen rejection, and it happens to everyone so fuck what you hear make your OWN judgments! HAVE CONFIDENCE!
18. Live your life like you have this huge dick in your pants EVEN if you don't. You know what, FUCK like you have a big dick too, again even if you don't!
19. If she want dirty talk make sure she's not going to get offended if you start with the "yeah bitch" & "take that you fucking dirty slut" lingo some girls want dirty talk, but not disrespectful dirty talk, THAT can TOTALLY kill the mood if you find out mid-sex she actually gets super offended at that, Especially if it's the first time you're having sex. So keep in mind dirty talk can be dirty without being disrespectful you don't have to call a girl a filthy little whore to talk "dirty". Start slow keep it sensual if she's fine with that keep it that way until she wants something dirtier, nastier etc. NEVER EVER assume you can end up getting bitch slapped & left with some severe blue balls.
20. Last BUT most importantly, passionate slow & steady love making is really nice and all, but if she tells you she want aggression, get aggressive! Throw me against the wall, pull my hair, wrap your hands around my throat, hold me down, kiss my neck, grab ass hard, make me moan, bite my lips, neck, hips, spank my ass and don't stop till I'm shaking. It's called aggression some girls love it, so if you're not sure what she means by "be more aggressive" try a few or be a champ & try them all!

So this post was inspired by a lil convo with a friend on facebook "Some boys need to learn a few things...Rule #1... I have the kitty.. I call the shots..." Couldn't have agreed any more, this was rules from myself, friends & here. This is the real deal straight from us ladies's mouths to you. So take this womanly insight and use it and abuse it! hopefully you got something out it, pass this on everyone can use advice <3.
READ it LEARN it & LOVE it. ENJOY it.-xx

PS-If you'd like to add a rule or just leave a comment on one of these go ahead & drop me a comment<3 I read everything, just don't ask me which of these I personally am a fan of, some things I like to keep personal ;) between me & my significant other. thank you!